Just Bee.

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An Old School Ode to Jaegermeister!

I love my Jaeger

'Cause it changes my behavior.

I become the moving sidewalk,

So you can call me the conveyor.

I'll spill some rhymes for you

'Cause that's how I pour.

If I drink anymore of this shit,

I'ma be on the floor!

The Creative Mind on Vacation

The creative mind on vacation is really just around the corner on writer's block.

Essay on Words: "Understand"

The word “understand” is considered synonymous with “appreciate,” and “identify with.”  However, when we“understand” something, we may not always be able to identify with it.  For instance, I can understand, logically, from Hitler's view-point,  why he wanted to exterminate the Jewish race, but I can not “identify with” this thought process or the actions that came from it, and I definitely can not “appreciate” it as a sound methodology for life.    I believe that there are many things that I will “understand" because to understand is to except what is, as it is.  I do not have to value it or believe in it to understand it. 

When we are able to understand something, we are becoming knowledgeable of the world around us. Essentially wisdom is a gathered by knowing a past, being aware of a present, and acknowledging a future; this is all we really have.  To take away the right of one’s ability to think is to hinder that person’s ability to understand any concept, and therefore all concepts throughout time.   

In the beginning...

...there was a list: 

Masters Degree (Library & Information Science) and Graduate Certificate (Museum Studies) for Company Knowledge: check.

Occupational License: check.

Office for Operation of Business: check.

Business Checking Account: check.

Business Debit Card: check.

Company Logo: check.

Business Cards: check.

Return Address Stamp: check.

Fictitious Name Published in Business Review Newspaper: check.

Two Clients Thus Far: check.

Archival Supplies: check.

Price List: in process.

Service List: in process. 

Crediting Fictitious Name on SunBiz: in process. 

Better Photograph Digital Scanner: coming soon.

Film Digital Scanner: coming soon. 

Advertising Business Online: coming soon.

Website for Business: coming soon.

Quick Books: coming soon.

I am so thrilled that I am starting my own company!  Ever since I was a little girl, I have wanted to be an independent small business owner of a company that supported education, promoted preservation, and enhanced the life of others.   I want to thank the following people for helping me get things started and who continue to support me and my endeavor to run Management & Memories:

Amy Cardinale

Randy Cardinale

Kate Butler

Mike Haygood

Lance Kirk

Phyllis Sopher

Richard Dahm

Privitization is the Key to Success

When our actions are performed for words, perhaps our words do speak louder than our actions.

I Am the Ocean

...an ocean of something so deep you don't know whether to dive in or to dry off or just float on...

Brains: living things that may create the insane.

St. Ives Graveyard

Beauty and love are divine; traces of distaste and apathy struggle to find truth in divinity, which oddly proves that divinity exists. The Earth is proof of God's divinity; from the seed in the field, to the serious smile, the Universe, all of His creations are beautiful.  It is man's pursuit to find these secrets, the ones left as though they were Easter eggs filled with joyful surprises.

When in Love...

I know when I'm in love when there is nothing I would change other than voicing that love...

"Censorship cannot eliminate evil; it can only destroy freedom." - Garrison Keillon

Last night, I was quite excited to sit down and enjoy the fourteenth season of my favorite television show: South Park.  It airs on Comedy Central every Wednesday night at ten o'clock.  Since I've been in the play, it has been difficult for me to watch it the night of, so lately I've been tuning into www.southparkstudios.com.  I was heart broken when I read the following message after clicking on the much anticipated episode 201:

Resolution?

It feels good.

Serenity?

It is possible.

"I don't believe we've met... Lady Caroline Bramble."

I can not begin to tell you how excited I am to be in this show.  Although I have put in over 24 hours of rehearsal this week, it is all well worth it.  My favorite part is costuming; I love dressing like my character and really embellishing the character role.  I consider myself a bit of a method actor; once I get started on a show, I can't help but get so into my character.  I almost decided to get my hair cut like the wig I wear (although I may just wait until I go grey...) Today I finally have a night off, but guess where I am going?  Another theatre to see my friend Jessica's show, Little Women.  I saw it back in the day in Canada at Stratford on Avon, but I am thrilled to see it again!  Especially since one of my friend's is in it!

Lady Caroline, as indicated from her title, is a woman of wealth who lives vicariously through the lives of her mother's friends.  She is the equivalent of Edie Sedgwick, Andy Warhol's fashion slave of the 1960's, but of the early to mid 1920's era (right after WWI).  However, she appears to be more well put together than Sedgwick (Bramble keeps it real with Cognac, not heroin).  Regardless, she is exhausted and has secrets that she keeps until, oddly enough, Mrs. Graves opens Lady Caroline up to reveal the depth of sadness that lives inside of her.  The only thing about Caroline I don't like is that she feels it necessary to end up with a man, and so quickly in the end.  I was hoping she would stick to her mantra: "Have you found another?"  "...Another Mrs. Graves?  We are the Moderns now, there's always another.  When the wine gets spilt, there's still the dregs.  Artists who want to mold me; photographers who want to capture me.  And writers!  Well, what woman wouldn't want to be studied, annotated, indexed?"  At least Barbara Cardinale is keeping that aspect real in her own life (especially by referring to herself in the third person...)

Hemingway, The Writer, The Man

"When you first start writing stories in the first person if the stories are made so real that people believe them the people reading them nearly always think the stories really happened to you.  That is natural because while you are making them up you had to make them happen to the person who was telling them.  If you do this successfully enough you make the person who is reading them believe that the things happened to him too.  If you can do this you are beginning to get what you are trying for which is to make the story so real beyond any reality that it will become a part of the reader's experience and a part of his memory.  There must be things that he did not notice when he read the story or the novel which  without his knowing it, enter into his memory and experience so that they are a part of his life.  This is not easy to do."

~from, Ernest Hemingway's unpublished manuscripts from the Kennedy Library collection, Roll 19, T 178

Impossible is Possible

Sometimes I find it almost impossible to concentrate on anything else when something of mine goes missing.  Hence this post: I can't stop thinking about how I am in dire need to get my playbook back before rehearsal tonight.  I took it out of my bag last night for a second time when we were blocking one of my scenes.  I believe I set it on the table... but I think they clear the table of the props in the evening and the stage manager said she didn't see it... (I left before all this because we were done with my scene) so, I am going to run down to the theatre and hope that it is there... if not, I am so screwed....  I can't believe I was so careless and didn't check for it before I left the theatre last night... ugh.  This is all getting to be so much right now...

Away vs Walk Away

"Walk Away" is the title of my new song, a part two if you will of "Away," the first song I ever wrote.   "Away" is about a relationship that abruptly ends when that special someone ceases to communication with the singer: "It's been some time since I last spoke with you..."  However, she doesn't lament, but rather "managed to write something down... anyway." The melody is cyclical, but she doesn't mind "repeating myself, anyway..."  The song becomes more dramatic and the tempo increases when she professes her love: "I need you here, right here to stay," but she is still lost and wonders how is this possible, "we haven't spoken in weeks."  In the end, she just can't contemplate "why you've gone, away."

"Walk Away," on the other hand, is forceful, fast and slightly angry.  No drama here, since she knows she's not only going to survive the break up, but literally tell the guy if he does ever decide to talk to her again, "if you recognize me, well then, say your peace, and walk away!"  The bridge sums it all up when she says, "If you want to change me, well think again.  If there is no changing me, then... walk away, walk away, walk away!"  I have to say, for my sixth song, this one is definitely the most challenging, but oh so powerful and enjoyable to listen to while bobbing your head thinking, "is there ever gonna be a chance for you and me?  No way!"

Feel free to call me if you want to hear both songs.  I'm a sucker for an audience. =^_^=

Easter

"The crown and ginger won't come soon enough... in the Name of the Lord, Amen." ~me

Well, Happy Easter everyone.  Let us not forget that this holiday is all about spending time with Jews and rehearsing lines (oh and guacamole dipped by tortilla chips.)

"Happy Jesus is a Zombie Day" ~Scott Miller

Work is Where the Heart is

...and so here begins the rantings, of which all speech, turned word, turned written, turned typed... oh God, this is already too meta for me.  Well, in other news, I wanted to briefly touch on how much I love my job.  Although I acquired a Masters in Library & Information Science as well as a Museum Studies Certificate, and not to mention a Bachelors of Arts in Literature with a minor in Philosophy... I am the manager of the family business; a storage warehouse.  To my surprise, I apply the skills I learned in all of those areas everyday that I am here.  Most people think I slack off at work, and sometimes, this is the case.  But who doesn't have those days, like on a Friday?  Besides, when there is downtime, I get to work on my creative and organizational projects that keep my mind flowing.  Anyway... I get to apply my organizational skills that I leaned while archiving, as well as my writing skills and social skills that I learned throughout college at work.  I take advantage of this primarily through selling stuff from abandoned units on craigslist.  I also have to create the deposit, answer the phone, manage customers and their files, and pretty much know the entire nine acres of the facility.  My favorite part of this job, other than nap time, is being in charge of marketing; I have an eye for that kind of thing. Bonuses include possessing my own nice, big office  decorated with everything that is me (film posters, my piano, two book shelves full of my books, magazines, and archives, etc.).  I also did not have to pay for all of the requirements to become a Certified Public Notary (which I now am; anyone wanna get married?  I can perform the rights!)  Above all else, I make more money than I ever would in a library.... so to sum it all up, I must admit that I am grateful that I spent seven years in college, making the most of it to end up working for my parents and enjoying the stress-free and imagination-filled life style... with a little work on the side!  ;)

CAM M@W

Last summer, I was involved with the University of South Florida's Contemporary Art Museum's Museum at Work exhibition project.  I'd like to share the blog that I helped edit and contributed to during my time interning.  I would again like to thank Peter Foe and Shannon Annis for a wonderful l learning experience; all of the memories formulated are archived in the beehive.  Click on the picture to view the blog!

ZZZz..Zz.z...Z.Z...Zzz...

I am exhausted, but thrilled to begin my new blog. I used livejournal for about two years, but it's time for an upgrade. And for first time readers, from the perspective of the novel writer, yes, yes, I am a nerd. I am okay with that. Besides, why else would I have accumulated a Masters in Library Science... at least I write and sing Rock 'n' Roll. It redeems me.

This evening? I finally purchased everything I need to begin scrapbooking (album, pages, stickers... need to print out pictures). I've decided to create a scrapbook that consists of all of my favorite moments in time and people (to the best of my knowledge... ie FOREverglades trip with Natalie, my trip to London '05, my graduations from SPC, Eckerd, and USF, my brother, Blaine (who comes home from Bahrain soon, soon, one day, soon! ...etc.)

I played a nice game of Scrabble with my mom (that we need to finish.) Of course, I worked all day and rehearsed my lines for Enchanted April (Showing April 22-May 2! And don't forget to tell your friends about it-- I'm half-naked on stage for 50% of my role!). Most importantly, however, I played my new Martin DC-1E and worked on song number six for my album that I hope to have done by next year... This song is quite different from all the others, but I am hopeful. I miss open mic nite...